Do you ever wish you could live two different lives? Not at the same time! Some people do that, and that IS NOT what I am referring to. And I certainly don’t mean to live your life twice – as in – growing up twice. Going through the teenage crazy phase with pimples and broken hearts once is enough! I mean this:
I love living in the city, chasing big dreams, and having everything at my finger tips. I love this life – this BIG, busy life.
I love the idea of living in a small town, where you know everyone and they know you. A small town with just the basics, and home with lots of land, a huge garden, and animals. Okay, somebody else would have to take care of the animals, but you get the idea. (Don’t hate me, but I am NOT an animal person – except for my cat. I enjoy them. I appreciate them. I think they are adorable. I don’t want them. It’s not really THEM, it’s more their inability to use a bathroom and groom themselves. Ha!)
There are two very different, very real life scenarios that are equally appealing. I struggle with that. Am I choosing the right one? I am a person who never wants to live with regrets. I want to know at the end of my days that I gave this life my best shot and be satisfied with the results. But alas, I’m a waffler…this drives me more crazy about myself than it probably does anybody else. My husband might disagree with that last statement. This is something I am working on – trying to be more decisive – and then accepting my decision.
I wonder sometimes if the thought of a different life would be as appealing in reality as it is in the pages of glossy magazines highlighting the benefits of simplifying your life. Hmmm…I suppose I will never know.
(P.S. For the record, I would keep my same hubby and beautiful boys. Not trading them for the world.)
For now, I suppose I am going to keep embracing this path that I’m on in the crazy, busy, a little bit insane metropolis of Los Angeles. If you’re gonna pick a city, right??
How about you? Do you prefer life in the big city, or you are a fan of the small town? Maybe you are somewhere in between?